My grandparents

I love my family.  Really.   Carlie's husband is super great and nice.  Carlie and Seth crack me up.  They are so alike.... even alike in how they annoy me! haha.

I just spent an hour talking to my Mom's parents.

It's nice to be able to call my grandparents and talk.  I was writing a list as I was talking to them:

-pray to find the qualities in people I'm dating
-might not be outwardly attracted to someone but will be after I get to know them
-spent last 4 years training to be a nurse so I should enjoy being a nurse
-be patient
-give nursing a year and if not what I wanted I can make a good judgement about what to do next
-ask the Lord to help me make good decisions
-take advantage of opportunities to help other people
-just because it's not in your PB, doesn't mean it won't happen
-find out what I really want to do as far as work
-PB's are not fortune-telling, they only help and give guidance
-to attract those I'm interested in:  positiveness, strong in the faith, happiness
-some mother out there who raised a fine young man who's personality will fit mine
-I need to think about medical school and if it will stop me from having the desire of my heart?
-what service can I do now?
-what can I do now:  take advantage of dating opportunities, don't date guys who have  no intention of ever being a husband or a father, just be myself!, don't settle (a man that I can look up to, who leads the family)
-there is someone out there
-whoever I marry will have to deal that my mom has bipolar schizo-affective disorder--they'll have to accept that and deal with it but there is someone out there who is big enough and worthy of my love to deal with that and give me what I need and I'll love him; my spiritual equal--equally spiritually yoked
-Grandpa Paul told me that I'm going to sell myself as Kelsey Justice: smart, good, spiritual, pretty, intelligent, loves children, no question I will be a good mother, a chosen daughter of God, confident person, great wife and mother, can goof off and be serious if I need to be
-have a positive mental attitude about myself, ask the Lord to help me
-I'm looking for someone who loves me the way I love him
-ask the Lord to give me inspiration with my decisions
-help me see the qualities in someone that I wouldn't have known
-my heart is telling me what I really should do:  be a mother and raise a family, in the meantime, be a good nurse and enjoy it
-don't sell myself short, there's a lot of girls that want the qualities I have
-I make my own decisions

It was really nice to talk to them and I feel a lot better.  I decided last night that I wanted to talk to my Grandma Carlie but it was really late at night.  I even wrote it on my to-do list:

Haha, checked that off!

Today was super rainy and it hailed and was a huge thunderstorm.  It was really pretty and to change up my routine, I went and studied out in my car trunk.

What to do

Go to med school?  Work as a nurse while going to med school?  Go to med school in Utah or stay in Dallas and maybe take some pre-med classes here?  I've always wanted to be a doctor.  I've always wanted to be a stay at home mom.  I want both.  I just don't want debt.  The family joke and my friends parents always say to me:  "Kelsey, why marry a doctor when you can be a doctor?"  But do I like bedside nursing too much to be a doctor?  So many things up in the air......What do I really love?  Do I feel like nursing is settling for me?  But what about doing the nurse practitioner program.....same abilities of a doctor but less pay.  I wish I just knew what my life will be in five years.  I feel like I keep hearing about ladies who are nurses that didn't marry until they were 30 and I think, crap, that's going to be me!  Those ladies always say they wish they would've done med school instead of nurse practitioner....What if I end up like that?  I always tell myself no regrets.  I go for things because I don't want any regrets.

No regrets.

phone call

I am very homesick sometimes.  I just wish I could be at my parent's house.  I miss cooking with my Mom, working out in the basement while watching movies, playing that baby grand piano, walking up 4 flights of stairs to get to my apartment in Provo, walking to and from school (shocker that I miss that), napping during classes (the only time I ever nap), my old friends--I miss them so much, my babies the W kids, taking walks around the neighborhood with my parents, just cuddling my Mom on the couch, babysitting....

It seems like during the school year I can't wait for summer break.  I just always forget how boring summer break can be.

Blast.  I need a job!  I'm not use to so much free time!  Why did I move to the only place where I did NOT have a job offer?  What was I thinking?

I was contemplating about moving back home because of this homesickness I have.  I went and sat in my room for a while today thinking about the pros and cons.  It's always the basics:  In SoJo I have my parents and my W kids to hang out with.  Biggest.  Pros.  Ever.

The little W triplets boys called yesterday.  Cutest little boys.  Paxton said his favorite thing to do is play with us.  Well, what do you know, that's also my favorite activity too!  Savannah called me tonight just barely after I was thinking about moving back to SoJo.  It was so fun to talk to those kiddos!  I miss them!

Now I'm conflicted.

This weekend was fun.  I went to church Sunday with my friends Ed and Shana.  After church we had Popsicles and I spilled red Popsicle all over my white shirt!  I didn't even realize it was all over me until my friend Mike told me.  I tried to eat a second Popsicle but that ended up spilling all over the floor and a little on my friend Shana.  Haha I'm cursed with popsicles!

I had to wash my white shirt twice!

After church I played Life and some other games with Carlie and Seth.  It was pretty cool because when Carlie and I were younger we'd always play and she always wanted to be the teacher (now she is in real life) and I always wanted to be the doctor (I'm a nurse--way cooler)....and that's what we were Sunday!  The only thing is, I had a mid-life crisis and became an entertainer making the lowest salary card!  I hope that's not indicative of the future.....

I was also god because I was in charge of giving out people pegs, haha

Yeah baby, makin' that guacamole!

Midlife crisis

This is me and Carlie on Sunday

On Monday we went to Grand Prairie and had swim party and BBQ.  Then I went to a free symphony concert with my friends where there were fireworks afterwards!

RED WHITE BLUE

Today is Tuesday and I've studied for the NCLEX, took Carlie lunch, went grocery shopping, played the piano, worked out, watched the bachelorette with Carlie and Seth and now.....blogged.

Mo-hawk, Mo-duck

My weekend was very fun.

_Went to a neon glow dance Friday with Shana and Ed_ (Ali B I miss your dance moves; I've had to step it up now that you're gone)

_Had some jello shots...of just jello..."Mormon style"_

I'm horrible at taking photos!!! Geez, cutting off everyone's heads

_Crepes with the Razzle-Dazzles Saturday morning_

Holy Moly these babies were delicious!  And this cat in the right bottom photo is TOOO CUUUTEE!  I want her.

_Fro-yo (thanks Shana!) with Shana, Melissa, Ed, and Mike on Saturday afternoon_

_Six Flags!!!!! on Saturday night_

The duck has a mohawk!  If Paxton were here, he'd kiss that duck for being so cool.  So would JD--after asking me why the duck has a mohawk and why the duck isn't pink.  Then, they'd make Will, Sav, and me kiss the duck....

Love you little W kids.

And I love my sister and her husband.  They are so nice!  Seriously, my family is super cool.  

I miss holding my Mom's hand and cuddling her while we watch our TV shows, so tonight I held Carlie's hand and cuddled her while watching our Person of Interest show, haha.

Family, you're the best.

I wish I could say something clever about family being like a duck....We're all a little quacky together!  haha...nice try on my part

Tutu

I woke up this morning with some bruises on my butt.  No, it's not because we had a spankin' line for my 22nd b-day, it's from my butt massage yesterday.  It is not as pleasant as it sounds...false advertisement!

I hung out with my cute new friends Samuel and Jose on my run and walk today,

Samuel aka Uncle Sam.  He's SOO big!

Jose

I also tried to hang out with little Dylo, but he was sleeping today.  This was Dylo yesterday:

He's so little!!!!  It's hard to see him but he's in the top middle of the picture.

This is the cake I made last night.  Chocolate cake with chocolate frosting, chocolate M&Ms, and almonds!  Notice the theme:  CHOCOLATE!

I almost ate cake for breakfast, instead I waited and ate it for lunch.

This is me ready to eat it for lunch

I woke up this morning and Carlie had put up a happy birthday sign and a little b-day card on the fridge.

Carlie = Best.  Sister.  EVER!!!!!!!

Carlie's b-day gift for me

Tonight we went to Applebees!

2 2 !

Then Carlie and I went and walked around trying to find her shoes.  No luck.  But we found Seth and took him home to eat cake

Ugliest shoes ever award!

 

It was sooooo windy today!  And you can see the slice of cake I already ate!

The last week

Carlie and I were in charge of passing out tickets for BYU's dance show on Thursday.  We even got to wear tags that said "volunteer." 

 

Before we went to the activity, we got pizza and icees at Sam's Club.  It's one of favorite treats.  In this picture, my delicious icee is exploding on me:

Friday I got donuts with Carlie and Seth.

Then, on Saturday I went to this art exhibit in downtown Dallas.  We got to walk through a yarn cocoon. 

I may have my weekend days confused..... But I know on Sunday I went to church, and these little guys haunt my dreams at night....almost every night...haha

Monday night I went to a concert with some peeps in my ward after a long day of grocery shopping and cooking.

So the Popsicles in this picture are already gone....after only three days of being eaten by me....I really like Popsicles

Lasagna I cooked while all the workers were at our apartment.  No I won't share unless you workers do your job and never have to come back!

new hairstyle I created on Monday

This one I won't keep...it's weird

And I got some b-day presents in the mail:

At Grimaldi's pizza for my b-day

Sadly, yesterday I got gas in my car and this was my gas mileage:

And look at this great picture find:

Thanks Dr. H., DDS

Homesick

Being non-busy....it is really hard.  I'm so use to being busy and not having much time to think.  Now, I have way too much time on my hands to think.  These thinking escapades lead me to being homesick.

Oh W children, I miss your sweet faces.  I miss you yelling down the neighborhood street:  "Kelsey!  Don't forget!  I LOVE YOOOUUUU!"

:)

I wish I could take the NCLEX already.  I want to scream down the street:  "NCLEX!  Let me take you so I can DEFEAT YOOOUUUU!"

I am coming for you.

Authorization to test, why haven't you come in the mail or email yet?  You frustrate me.  Are you just afraid I will cream the NCLEX?  You should be afraid.  I'm a genius. 

E=M C(squared)

Nursing jobs, why can't you just accept me already?  Don't you know I'm going to be an awesome nurse?

Frustrated, yeah, I'm real annoyed.
I just can't seem to get employed.
Why won't you give me a job?
Don't you know that I am the bomb?

Not gonna lie, I'm so glad yesterday was my first nursing job interview.  It's nice to have that milestone out of the way.

Where is the Wormian bone?

I'm sooooooooooo bored.

Taste the Rainbow

Everything tastes better when it's colorful.  I tried a new recipe for rainbow sugar cookies.  I'll be honest, I need a better sugar cookie recipe.  Anyone have an awesome recipe for sugar cookies?

Here's how you make the dough into a rainbow:
rainbow-pinwheel-cookies

These cookies took 2 hours to make.  And yet, I love them so.

How precious, right?

Also, I saw my dear heron friend last night and today as I was out walking/running.  He's a cutie.

I guess I didn't capture the heron in this picture as was my intent...

There's a lot of cuties in my life.  Like my sister.  She finally got her own lipstick!  Now we are cuties together!

And the best lookin' thing in my life....

CUM LAUDE!

Oh, and you know what's so not cute?  Finding a fly in the water you were drinking....Oh, Texas....